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Tuesday, June 29th, 2010


Date:Tuesday 29th 2010f June 2010 09:35:04 PM
Colorgenics Number:1/4/6/2/3/0/5/7/

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

At times all of us would like to be like the ostrich - to be able to bury our heads in the sand and let the rest of the world go by, but unfortunately you can't do just that - you have to face up to reality. A little peace and quiet would be most acceptable at this time but if only one could turn a blind eye to the problems of the day! Tomorrow is another day and who knows, it could be 'today' (not tomorrow) that could be the first day of the rest of your life!

Whatever you strive to do, something always seems to be holding you back. There is no subterfuge in you. You are a clear thinker and all you demand from life, in a relationship, is a partner whom you can trust and with whom you can, together, develop a foundation of trust based on understanding. You are your own person and you demand freedom of thought to follow your own convictions. You have no interest in 'two-timing' and all you seek is sincerity and 'straight-dealing'.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

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Thursday, April 29th, 2010

So say goodbye to love
And hold your head up high
There's no need to rush
We're all just waiting
Waiting to die
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Wednesday, October 31st, 2007

[16:10] Bodaciousbooty: Sometimes I just think to myself, my goodness child, youre just too adorable for words. then I kiss the mirror.....with tongue.
[16:10] Bodaciousbooty: sometimes if im not paying attention, Ill try and grab some boob
[16:11] Bodaciousbooty: but normally i just stick with the polite mirror-lovin's.

kekekekek oh nicole, how cute you are lol

(screennames have been altered to protect the not so innocent)
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Monday, October 29th, 2007

another thing.

barium enemas?

i'd advise against em.
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Sometimes it's really rough. It sucks to be the bad guy, to hurt people, especially people you care so much for. I wish i could have complete control over emotions. Life would be so much easier. Then again, life would probably also suck incredibly. I just hope that one day things change for the better. I have a lot I need to figure out for myself. A lot of time away is needed. Not necesarily away from anyone in particular, i just gotta do something to help myself grow up a little.


this year has been rough.
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Thursday, September 6th, 2007



SO. Tuesday rolls around and i have to go to work. SWEET. ANYWAY. It was a shitty day. TONS of calls. and then finally i get to freakin go home. SO i longboard my way to the metro and hop on. Get to my stop FINALLY, and then skate to my car....well...i get to my car, but realize, i fuckin left my keys at work and there is NO WAY im fuckin goin back for them. SO i call bree to see if she can get me a ride in the morning and she says yes, so off i go, longboarding my way home from the metro....
NOW i am in pain. Having not exersized in a while definately shows. My right lower extremities are now allsorts of jacked up. and it didnt help that on monday i thought i broke my achilles tendon and it STILL hurts. So yeah, i rode home with what felt like an injured achilles tendon/heel, and no real preparation.

But needless to say, it was definately the best ride ever. It took forever, i was in work clothes, it was hot and i had my fuckin backpack with me, but even just feeling the sweat was awesome.

I pretty much love longboarding. And its all i think about now haha. I even went and longboarded on my smoke break.

I want to go so glad the weekend is here for me after today.

I made a perdy picture. with slugs. its pretty dang sweet.


i neeeeeed a cigarette. STAT.
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IDIOT: My keyboard is broken, i need a new one.

COOLEST PERSON EVER: Okay, whats wrong with your keyboard?

IDIOT: My number buttons arent working.

COOLEST PERSON EVER:Have you tried to click on NumLock and see if that works?

IDIOT: Not those number buttons. The other ones

COOLEST PERSON EVER: They arent typing anything?

IDIOT: Well, when i press cap lock it wont work

SO, im like...confused right. Cause why the heck wouldnt her number buttons work?!!? right?!?

UNGH, lets start over. When i press cap lock (and yes, she calls it CAP lock...not CAPS lock) and then i press a number button the thing above it should show up

COOLEST PERSON mean the symbols?....

IDIOT: yea. i need a new keyboard. Can you just get me a new keyboard.

COOLEST PERSON EVER: "Ma'am...that would be the SHIFT key. Why dont you try that

and she has the BALLS to tell me,

IDIOT: NO its the CAP lock key.

COOLEST PERSON EVER: No...the CAPS lock key capitalizes the doesnt do ANYTHING to the numbers...

IDIOT: Whatever. look i'll try but..

and then the idiot shuts up problem is fixed bye.

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Tuesday, September 4th, 2007

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Monday, August 27th, 2007

The Customers at work....should not have computers... OKAY SO, im at work, and im getting the usual boring fix quick/ticket calls...and this woman calls to check up on a ticket. And im reading it...and i dont know...i was like:
ME: "What the problem you're having?"
IDIOT ON PHONE : "I need someone to plug in my keyboard"

So im thinking maybe she has some physical disability that prohibits her from bending down and plugging this keyboard in.

ME: "Have you tried? Are you able to?"
IDIOT ON PHONE: " scared of stripping the pins" i look at the ticket and the summary states "Her keyboard is disconnected.  I tried to instruct her on how to reconnect her keysboard, but she stated that she couldn't do it.  Please assist."

ME: "If you just line up the little lines you wont have a problem just plugging it right back in"
HER: "I just really need someone to come and plug it back in for me. I dont know how."

Yeah....I think that if you cant plug in a fuckin keyboard, that you should NOT be near a fuckin computer. You should not be working on one, you should not be allowed to even look at one. Seriously...its simple...uhm yea. Stoopit.
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Thursday, August 23rd, 2007

im exhausted, worn out, and stresed the fuck out.

i need a break from everything.
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Monday, August 13th, 2007

You are trying to establish yourself and make an impact despite the fact that everything around you seems to be against you - putting up barriers, but don't be unduly concerned: you have the right ideas and come what may, they will soon be manifested and appreciated.

For some time now you may have been subjected to considerable physical illness and or emotional distress. This may have taken a severe toll and you feel both physically and mentally worn out. Your self esteem has been reduced and you now need a peaceful environment which will permit you to effect full recovery.

You have a high opinion of yourself. It is perhaps because of this self-centredness that you become exasperated when you feel that your needs are misinterpreted by those around you. When this happens - and it does quite often - you feel that there is no-one that can understand the way you feel and it is because of this egocentric self that you are quick to take offence.

You are experiencing extreme emotional disappointment because it would seem that a particular relationship is no longer running smoothly. You would like to break away from this involvement completely and yet, if this were to happen, then its possible that something very important to you would be lost. You are in a quandary. You are not sure which way to turn. So on the one hand, you would like to free yourself from this attachment altogether, yet on the other, you do not want to lose anything nor risk uncertainty and the possibility of further disappointment. These contradictory and opposing emotions are now causing you considerable stress but you are putting on a brave face - pretending that you don't care.

The stress that you are experiencing at this time is due to the present situation - a situation of your own making. But trying to ignore it, hoping that it will go away, will only aggravate it further. What you need to do is to slow down - to relax and re-think the situation and by going slow, you may be amazed to find that most of your problems will resolve themselves.
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You appear to others around you as a person who is simply 'laid back'. From time to time you shelve your ambitions and forgo the desire for prestige and recognition and you are often considered as mentally lazy. You have the ability and you are the first to know this, but you prefer to take things easy and indulge your longing for comfort and security.

Everything seems to be going against you at this time. Try as you may you are meeting with considerable resistance at every turn. Nothing is going as you would plan. The situation is difficult and you are trying to persist in your objectives against resistance. It would appear that you are being very secretive about your future plans just in case people around you try to thwart you.

We are all conditioned by our environment and as such we respond to people's perception of ourselves, but you feel that conditions are not right at this time. You are experiencing certain reservations that are precluding you to develop a particular relationship, business or personal, that is being offered. It is 'make your mind up time' - the decision is all yours, but whatever decision you make, it will be the right one.

Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment. It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'. Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache.

Whatever you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong and you are now quite convinced that there is little point of formulating new objectives and it is this belief that has resulted in the stress and anxiety. You would like to be able to communicate with other people who think as you do. At this time there seems to be no-one on the horizon nor is there any prospect of meeting anyone in the immediate future. But it must be said that you are really a 'trier' and indications are that you will, as indeed you have in the past, 'bounce back'.
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You are seeking protection against anything which might seem to be exhausting you or tiring you out. It would appear that you are seeking a life of security and physical ease, free from any problem or disturbance.

You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those who enter into your sphere on influence.

Everything seems to have gone wrong and the situation at this time is such that you are not quite sure which way to turn. So it would appear that you are 'holding back', re-consolidating your position and relinquishing all fun and games for the time being.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured.
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You feel worn out, physically and mentally. Recently the going has been tough and it looks as if there is still a considerable way for you to go before you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. If only you could put a protecting wall around yourself and cut yourself off from the rest of the world - be it even for only a little while - how wonderful it would be, but you can't - so you need to bear with it. Just when everything will seem at its lowest ebb you will find that there is a turnabout and your problems will seem to find a way of resolving themselves.

You want what you want and you need all that you want and, as they say in the movies, you are the sort of individual that 'By hook or by crook' you will, by fair means or foul, endeavour to get what you are looking for.

You feel unhappy because you feel that you are not able to obtain the co-operation of those around you. All you would like at this time would be to achieve harmony within your circle.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

You wish to safeguard yourself against criticism or conflict and to embed yourself in a protected situation. You are a difficult person to relate to and very difficult to please.
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Wednesday, June 27th, 2007



That'd be fricken AWESOME to have babies from two women. fuck yea.

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hrm. its been almost a week and i forgot that the dr told me to up the dosage to 60mg and WOOPS i've been taking like, 0mg hahaha. I just forget. i dont care. fuck this medicine. i cant wait to get away from here. i want to be free. i want to see baby Arach and watch him grow. I want to lie down with Airess and wrastle. Im glad i'll be there. And shit, i get to hang out with some awesome fuckin people again. I hope i can do this job, this work. I hope i make it into that pentagon job. i hope i transfer to Andrews so i dont have to take the damn metro everyday. i hope...i hope...i mind is a mess. maybe thats why i should be taking that medicine? guess i'll get on that right now. it'll be nice to not feel dizzy. 

i need monies. stat.
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Sunday, May 13th, 2007

i swallowed a giant bug...merp
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Thursday, April 5th, 2007

SOO i went to Fantasy to look at knives and ended up with these free Prescreening tickets to Grindhouse....annnd....uhhh...IM SO FUCKING GLAD I WENT TO SEE IT...

I really loved the flicks...they were awesome....seriously....i fucking love them...i cant wait to buy them and watch them over and over...and it sucks cause its all i want to do now...just watch them...over and over....UNGH....GRINDHOUSE>......TARENTINO!! YOU RUIN MEEEE!!!
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Thursday, March 29th, 2007


Tuesday i decided to go to Maryland...and im so glad i did. I know i pissed off my family, and blahblahblah, whatever, they're always pissed about something anyways, but i really had an awesome time. It was so great to see all my friends and just..BE around them. i really did not want to leave...

i feel like Waldorf is my home...and me not being there is just...not right...

i need these dont find friends like these just anywhere. 

And so far, i've only met one person here that is just as kick ass and she's probably leaving soon...

i want to move back...

My friends are my family...i love them more then i ever knew possible...

and i miss my boys!! life sucks without Brian and for serious.

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Friday, February 16th, 2007

I promised you this post. here it is. lol more to come in a bit.
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